August 9, 2007

Today's Change

When do things begin to change and how do they change after habits have already been formed? So many times I ask the Lord for change, so that i can love him more, obey Him more, do the good works.... just be WORTHY OF THE GOSPEL. I sometimes wonder if i have clinical Short Term memory, but I am the living picture of James 1:23. "For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was."

Some verses say that this man looks intently into a mirror. I check myself out, like most people who own mirrors, with the intent to get rid of dirt, stray hairs, unwanted nose guests, and any feelings of doubt that I am not acceptable. Depending on the time of day, whether it is getting ready in the morning or just after washing my hands from a break, the time spent in front of that mirror varies. However, no matter how much or little time I spend there, as soon as I walk away, I begin to forget those certainties I just substantiated. I saw with my own eyes... "There is nothing in your teeth! Your hair is fine!" I can't even believe myself! I guess this is why I need a savior. My own mind has trouble trusting my eyes. I need help!

When I read the Word, I hardly find myself looking this intently at my sin (dirt, stray hairs, unwanted nose and teeth guests). How much more should I be comparing myself with the Savior than with what the world thinks is embarrassing?

So back to the original question... How do things change? My lack of remembering or lack of trust habit has been formed. I need a "reverse bad habit" pill or something. Read the word, believe the word, read the word do the word, trust the word, love the word.